Day, gee, not sure: Overwhelm

Life sure flies when you're "Getting Things Done for America" as the AmeriCorps slogan (or AmeriSlogan, if you will) goes. I saw my blog yesterday and realized that over a month and a half has elapsed since the last time I surfed on over to the AmeriBlog and added anything. I could use the fact that my current housing in a converted double-wide trailer in Mobile, AL, does not have any internet access as an excuse, but then I have an internet enabled phone that I pay a ridiculous amount of money for that I can type on just as I am doing right now at 11 pm. So, why do I choose right now to add to the so called inter-web-space-net record of my AmeriJourney? Perhaps it is the existential "future" discussion I just extricated myself from that is still going on in the kitchen. Perhaps it is because the journey is now more than half over and I am missing a chunk in the record. Let's not get started on chunks, oh my. Perhaps it is just because I can't sleep right now for so many reasons. Perhaps I just had a fabulous day striking a set at a wonderfully welcoming, cheerfully appreciative local theater company with my team and I don't want the day to end. Perhaps it is all of these things that have converged to finally compel my distraught thumbs to type on this ludicrously small keyboard. I am in awe at the situations that I have found myself in during the course of my little existence and my AmeriSituations are no exception, yet, I am regularly reminded that "I chose this" and I chose it for a reason. I have yet to determine the reason, but I have a strange faith that it is out there (or in here) somewhere. As I watch my teammates discuss and fret over major life decisions (schooling, moving, jobs, money, marriage) I am reminded of how I feel about the future. That whatever your decisions may be, they are yours and they can never be wrong. External sources may say, " that was a mistake and here are the external consequences," but we are all here to learn something and it is our choices that determine that course of learning. I have faith that where ever you are is where you are supposed to be and it is how you learn from your situation the opens or closes doors. I have faith that my teammates will make the right decisions for them because what they choose will be right. They are the architects of their futures. I look forward to watching how their lives after AmeriCorps will unfold (and I am equally curious about my own).
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